1. |
Art Is Real
01:36
|
|||
|
Do I really believe in violence
Or am I just trying to fit into
The punk rock crowd
Our heads in the clouds
It's just about the music anyway
It's not like things would change
That's a lie art is real
And it influences people
So I'll start a revolution
And I'll play a couple shows
And if I'm not successful
Will you carry me home
I never shot dope
I've never been to jail
I'm just a middle-class white girl
With some pent-up rage
But I've been homeless
And I tried to kill myself
Not just once
And I stood up to a racist cop
So I'll start a revolution
And I'll play a couple shows
And if I'm not successful
Will you carry me home
I was on crystal meth
And it scared me half to death
Maybe it would be better
Now that I know what to expect
I dropped out of high school
And I flipped off my mom
And I'm a vegan and an anarchist
Is that punk enough for you
Is that punk enough for you?
|
||||
2. |
I'm An Adult
01:58
|
|||
|
Waiting at a bus stop in Carlsbad
I've got to get to Oceanside
For an NA meeting that doesn't let me smoke
What the fuck is up with that
The bus is running late at least I have a nice view
Of the beach and the people with dogs walking by
I'm gonna be late but that's okay
I have to learn how to survive
No parents no school sounds pretty good
I could do without the job
Can't I just have sex and freedom and vote
Leave out the responsibility
Now I've got a headache and the bus didn't show
I'm tired of waiting I'll just go home and smoke
As I walk over the freeway I think
What if I jumped just to see what it's like to die
I'm hearing footsteps
There's nobody there but what if there was
I should take self-defense classes
To learn how to survive
No parents no school sounds pretty good
I could do without the job
Can't I just have sex and freedom and vote
Leave out the responsibility
Becoming an adult didn't set me free
In fact it's just more responsibility
|
||||
3. |
Values
02:36
|
|||
|
The corporate machine isn't very appealing
It seems like it would be completely exhausting
What kind of anarchist would I be if I had a job
What kind of punk rocker would I be if I fell in line
I don't want to think about my future
I just want to think about myself
The way I am in this moment I'll put up with being homeless
As long as I get to stand up for what I believe in
I want to join a punk rock band
I could live in my mom's old minivan
Make money selling cigarettes to high schoolers
See where my life goes from there
I don't want to think about my future
I just want to think about myself
The way I am in this moment I'll put up with being homeless
As long as I get to stand up for what I believe in
My values don't align with society
But I don't have a choice what I'm living in
I hope that something changes soon
Before I give in to nihilism
My values don't align with society
But I don't have a choice what I'm living in
I hope that something fucking changes soon
Before I give in to nihilism
I don't want to think about my future
I just want to think about myself
The way I am in this moment I'll put up with being homeless
As long as I get to stand up for what I believe in
|
||||
4. |
Bad Influence
02:14
|
|||
|
If all your friends jumped off a bridge would you do it too
Even though you know that it might just kill you
If all my friends jumped off a bridge they'd be following me
I didn't ask them to they just do what they please
I should lead by example
Because I'm looked up to
But I don't even care
I'll just do what I want to
Call me a bad influence
I would say that's accurate
I make bad decisions
It's part of who I am
I don't care about myself
But don't get me wrong
I still care about the people
Who got hurt following along
If all your friends smoked would you have a cigarette too
Even though you know that it just might kill you
I stole one from my friends they didn't offer to me
I don't care what the fuck happens I do what I please
I should lead by example
Because I'm looked up to
But I don't even care
I'll just do what I want to
Call me a bad influence
I would say that's accurate
I make bad decisions
It's part of who I am
I don't care about myself
But don't get me wrong
I still care about the people
Who got hurt following along
If all your friends jumped off a bridge would you do it too
Even though you know that it might just kill you
|
||||
5. |
You Can't Fix Me
02:18
|
|||
|
Why do you act like you think I'm not trying
What is the problem here why are you crying
I need you to know I'm not killing myself
I'm just filling a void in my spirit
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
Why do you act like you care about me
You were the reason I'm like this you see
You think that you can take control of my life
As if I can't still get away
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
You'd think by the third time I'd figure this out
I just can't seem to get it through my thick fucking skull
I have a problem and I fucking know it
My decisions are taking their toll
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
You can't fix me
You can't fix me
I'm broken and
This is how I'm supposed to be
|
||||
6. |
Dysphoria
03:54
|
|||
|
Tear the name tag off my water bottle
They got it wrong
Cross my name right out erase it off the board
It feels wrong
Give it all up
Give it all away
It's better that I hide the truth and stay safe
Walking out into the real world
Both sides are wrong
The consequences just to live my life
Maybe I'm wrong
Force it all out
Make it find a way
It's better that I tell the truth than hate myself
As my body grows into a different shape
It tells a lie
It makes me hate myself I'll never get it right
I want to die
Let it slip out
The secret got away
It fucking scares me that I have no control
|
||||
7. |
Birds Are My Friends
04:07
|
|||
|
I met a bird some years ago
I liked him so I brought him home
It took time to learn to take care of him
But soon we formed a friendship that would never end
I met a bird some time after that
He was brought to me injured by my cat
I cared for her 'till she could fly away
Since then I saw her every day
Birds are my friends
I met a bird one Halloween
The prettiest peafowl I'd ever seen
They were celebrated for being intersex
If only human beings were given that respect
I saw two birds the other day
A falcon in the bushes with their pigeon prey
I love them both but falcons need to eat
What kind of friend would I be if I intervened
Birds are my friends
Maybe when I die I'll be reborn as a crow
Happiness and love would be all I know
Maybe I should try to end my suffering
I'll be hatching from my egg in the morning
But my little best friend would miss me
And I would never have gotten to see
The nest that the bird I rescued had made
And the newborn baby birds
Birds are my friends
|
||||
8. |
Grow Up
01:31
|
|||
|
I had a cigarette today
'Cause I ran out of batteries for my vape
I smoked it down to the filter 'cause I don't give up
I ran out of water I feel like throwing up
There was a half-finished bottle of vodka behind the dumpster and I didn't drink it
There was a rusty razor blade behind the dumpster and I didn't take it
Maturity is new to me but I guess I'll give it a try
What I was doing before wasn't working I'll do something different this time
My life is falling apart
'Cause I ran out of batteries for my heart
I decided that I'm gonna start growing up
I'm getting tired of fucking my life up
There was a half-finished bottle of vodka behind the dumpster and I didn't drink it
There was a rusty razor blade behind the dumpster and I didn't take it
Maturity is new to me but I guess I'll give it a try
What I was doing before wasn't working I'll do something different this time
Maturity is new to me but I guess I'll give it a try
I decided that I'm gonna start growing up I'm tired of fucking up my life
|
||||
Chloe Defector Cortland, New York
another folk punk solo project that nobody asked for
Chloe Defector recommends:
Substrate Vibrations
by Spud Bugs
I play banjo in this band sometimes
go to album
Trash Van: Repurposed. Like New.
by Trashy P & Frenz
Always gonna be my favorite band of all time
go to albumIf you like Chloe Defector, you may also like:
supported by 7 fans who also own “I Hope When I Die I'm Reborn As A Crow”
Fucks. KD4KD (Knife Dykes for Knife Dykes).
go to album
FIGHT LIKE HELL recordings from 2004-2007
by Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains
supported by 6 fans who also own “I Hope When I Die I'm Reborn As A Crow”
This album is like cracking a cold 40 of steel reserve after fighting in a parking lot at 3 in the morning. If you could bottle youth it would be hard to get a better brew than this.
go to album
Colossally good New Wave out of Portland, with the nerviness of Kleenex poured into hooky pop songs.
go to album
The Corruption of What Cheer?
by Jane Doe Ensemble
Restless, agitated no wave for modern times built around razor-sharp guitar and roiling percussion from Jane Doe Ensemble.
go to album
